Growing Up Too Fast
Today I had a good look at my soon to be five year old son and I am amazed at how much he has grown. How the years seem to just go by. One of my biggest fears as a mother (and believe me there are many of them) is the thought of him growing up and growing away from his dad and I.
At this point in his life I see him struggling to exert his independence while still holding on to the special things that we share as mother and son. For instance when we are alone in the evenings just after we spend time reading and worshiping he loves to sit upon my lap and we would share a warm embrace. Those are truly special times for me and these moments I would forever treasure and tuck away into a place within my heart so that I could dust out and recollect in the next few years.
I wonder to myself if he will suddenly not want to have nothing to do with us when he grows a little older. What would I do when he no longer wants me around? Would he still want to share those special hugs that we so often share? Would the words I love you mummy still freely flow past his lips? Probably not or maybe he will still want me around if I make a point of being there for him right now.
I made a choice just after my son’s birth to be a Stay at Home Mom or rather a Work At Home Mom. I was not an easy decision by no stretch of the imagination. There had to be adjustments but today I am glad I did. Those moments we share in the morning and in the evenings are a sacrifice on my part. I have to give up a few hours of work each day to spend time listening and sharing with my son. Hopefully those moments will have an impact on him too and perhaps sometime in the future he will remember the way we were.
I love you Omarion!
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